Saturday, May 30, 2009 @ 1:08 AM
I just don't know what is happy.
My mind: Worried about this coming Monday, Chinese O level.
My heart: Empty, or maybe fading..
My feeling: Stress and not happy at all.
My life: Bored, and life is just suck now.
To me:
People are: Realistic, complicated, never contented and some are just so damn fucking hypocrite.
Love: Forever is not in my dictionary. It may not be love(feeling), just used to stick with him or her. The feeling of sadness is much more than being happy. Feeling cheated and hurt.
Married: Not guarantee.
Single: Freedom but lonely.
Study: Just for the sake of better future.
Parents: Only person(s) that can be trusted! Who really cares about you!
Teachers: Also human, even though some are really suck.
Friends: My true friend is Wynna Koh Hui Na. Gao Hui Na but not "gao" at all? Lol.
True friend(s) is not easy to find. You may think he/she is, but actually not. Betrayer and back-stabber can just go and die. Even if you don treat me/he/her/us/we
as your friend, you don't have to act like you are one. Fuck off please.
Janice Gan : And me, I don't think anybody can really understand me because I don't even understand myself. I am not very sociable, but my principle of "I will treat you back the way you treated me" can really make me treat you like my friend if you really treated me like one. I don't love myself so I'm thinking how am I suppose to love anyone else right? Life is just fucking unfair. Mood swing make me think a lot and can make me cry easily. So better don't ask anything if you saw this kind of situation real life. But please don't blame me for not
answering your question. Hide my feeling, without letting people to know. I'm a very emotional person too.
Hate: Betrayer and Back stabber(Which I really met causes like that and was pretty serious one) Hongster(Hurt like hell man. Sweet guy but unfaithful)
Hypocrite(I don't like to act, I want to be my true self. But if you want to play, I will
cooperate then)
Past, fats, short, short hair, small eyes, emotional, people who is proud, look down on others, no manners and lots more.
Love: To be loved, to be important to people, to be respected, everything to be perfect(I know it's impossible) and .... Cannot think of any already. But of course, CHOCOLATE! Especially with nuts, but I hate chocolate with raisins.
And this is me, whether if you like me or hate me, up to you! Bacause I don't really care? (: