After reading my past post, I really miss him. Ya, everything is too late. Too late.. :'(
You people will never know how scare I'm, how sad I'm.. Seriously, I no longer know what I want anymore. Nobody is able to make me feel really happy now. But I want to say, I LOVE MY MUM! I will cherish and treasure. I hate the feeling of losing someone around me so please don't leave me.

Seriously, I still cannot believe that he had left.. It is really an unbelievable fact, hard to accept. How am I suppose to do? People ask me not to think, don't be sad. But do you have that experience before? Seeing someone that is close to you left without knowing beforehand? It really shock me, feels like my heart had stopped, my nervous system is not working. Words really can't explain how I feel. Give whatever you can before it's too late.

Life is unpredictable so treasure everything you have before it's too late.

I will take care of myself and got to be strong to take care my mum.
My heart is still aching..
It can never be forget..

Tired.
Whenever I think of the past, bring me around the place... I felt so headache.
God bless him please!
My mummy is the best!
That bitch is a cb! Heartless!

人一生只谈一次恋爱或许才是最好的。
因为经历多了，会麻木。分离多了，会习惯。
换恋人多了，会比较。
到最后你不会再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃。

From Dorothy: I don't agree. (: with those chinese words. 人生出来is to 比较.no比较哪来的进步?拿来比较才知道,哪一个对你最好. (:

Reply tag to Dorothy: 换恋人多了，会比较。Because comparing will make us not contented, especially when you got too much ex-lovers. As I'm one feeling this so I agreed. Which cause 麻木。 Once 麻木 will cause 到最后你不会再相信爱情。
*If not, I won't be waiting and finding a new one? :/

This is the real regret.
Extreme heartache I ever had. I'm afraid to open the door, whenever I open the door, my tears start to roll down and never stop.
How long am "I gonna be strong"?

人一生只谈一次恋爱或许才是最好的。
因为经历多了，会麻木。分离多了，会习惯。
换恋人多了，会比较。
到最后你不会再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃。
Saw this at Dandan's blog. I fully agreed man. Tired with love..
I have no direction for future. I'm afraid of future, scare to go on..
Do I really need you now? Even if you are by my side, do you willing to listen me complaining?
Being independent is able to let you survive even if you are alone, it may be good. But somehow I rather not, I want to be taken care by other people.
I love my mum! The luckiest things in my life was to have this mummy. She never give up on us.. She's really tired.
My dad is getting weaker and weaker, I'm really afraid that he's not able to make it. He is stubborn which made us worried. I miss the time when you brought us out last time. I rather not have freedom like everyone dad who are strict to their daughter than you having a weak health. Though I know that you don't feel good too.
Life to me is getting bad to worse? So sick with life. Living is just suffering.

East coast Cyclingggggggggg!
My butt pain sia! Start cycle from around 7plus(pm) to this morning around 7am. 12 hours? Of course we slacked and eat, Saiful eat a lot despite he's skinny. Lol. We cycle to Changi village to find Saiful's girlfriend(s), Shel and Chloe. (: Pretty sia. He said Chloe prettier right, Saiful?? Hehe..
We cyclied Changi village to Changi Beach here and there like 5 or 6times lah. Then uh, we slacked at Changi Beach because I saw there's swing so I suggest to go over and play.. Saiful threaten me to post.. For the 16years, first time kena bird shit. Fcuk man. Lucky never kena my hair siol. Then Saiful tried to confont me by saying I'm lucky. -.- Lol. But still thank you lah. :D
If more people go will be better, so hopefully after O level !!! I'm waiting!